Christmas Wish

At this time of year everything and everyone is Hustling and Bustling,
running around trying to catch that last minute bargain,
geting those Gift Cards which make it easier for the lazy people who don't want to actually think about having to get a meaningful gift because what would be the fun in that?
What has the meaning of Christmas become?
Is it how much someone spent on someone else?
Who has the shinier gift wrapping paper?
Who got the Hallmark card as opposed to receiving the .99 one.
When did people's job's become more important than their families?
What happened to taking "Family" time?

This Christmas I want something simple as I ususally do.
I want to see my daughter's face light up when she opens up her gift from Santa that she gets every year because its important that she believe in something while she's young.
"Who is Santa Claus?" she asks.
I reply that he is someone who brings happiness into people's hearts when they remember what it is like to be as simple as a child and enjoy a child's innocence.
"I'm still innocent." She says.
How true this is.
And yet for an eight year old she has suffered too much for anyone's lifetime.
And yet she still beleives.
She gives me the hope I seek when I feel as though there is no more to cling on to.
This Christmas I want peace, yes for everyone, but, for myself.
I wish to find my inner peace and accept all of the parts which create "Me".
I want to see life through new eyes.
I want the one I love to find himself and be happy, even if, to my saddness, it isn't me.
I want him to look at me through new eyes as well and see the true me.
I want my family to be able to remain close despite the people and events that keep attempting to tear us apart.
I wish that everyone gets a sense of peace within their souls.
I wish to one day fall in love again, with the right man and for the right reasons and recieve love whole heardetly like I deserve.
I wish to rippen and no longer be green to life, love, and myself.
I wish , I wish, I wish you all a Merry Christmas.